"My love for you has a net weight of 21 grams."
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The weather in July was very sultry, but Song Yu felt the cold to the bone.
She could only look at Ma Jiaqi lying on the hospital bed through a transparent glass window through a door.
He fell asleep quietly, his crooked eyelashes quivering from time to time, and a morbid pallor covered his face, which was still Song Yu's familiar eyebrows.
The person Song Yu had been thinking about was finally seen at this moment.
She didn't have the courage to open the door and reach out to touch him.
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She and Ma Jiaqi first met in the mild climate of May, when she chose a bookstore to work part-time in order to make ends meet.
She was sitting in front of the checkout page, looking down at the book spread out in front of her, when Ma Jiaqi pushed open the door of the bookstore and walked in.
The crisp and melodious wind chimes sounded, and Song Yu raised her head subconsciously, so the boy who had been inseparable from her for most of her life broke into her eyes.
His skin was very white, his fine black hair was on his forehead, the corners of his lips were slightly curved, and there was a smile and a hint of confusion in his good-looking eyes.
The boy raised his eyes and saw Song Yu who was staring at him.
He pursed his lips and walked towards Song Yu.
majiaqi"Excuse me, where is this place?"
The cold voice sounded, so that Song Yu couldn't help but bring his ears closer.
songyu"Here, this is Qiqi Bookstore."
Ma Jiaqi nodded, then bent the corner of his mouth and thanked Song Yu.
Ma Jiaqi looked around, then walked to a bookshelf, his long white fingers stroking a row of books.
Then stopped at a book and pulled it out.
Song Yu tilted her head and looked at it carefully. It was Haruki Murakami's "Norwegian Forest".
The young man's white fingers took the book and came to the checkout page again.
majiaqi"How much is the price of this book?"
Ma Jiaqi nodded again and began to look down at his pockets.
Song Yu threw out a golden sentence from the book at this time.
songyu"Everyone has their own forest, maybe we've never been there, but it's always been there, and it will always be there. The lost are lost, and those who have met will meet again."
Ma Jiaqi paused, then looked up at Song Yu in surprise.
majiaqi"Do you like this book too?"
Song Yu smiled and nodded.
songyu"I've always liked Haruki Murakami's work."
The corners of Ma Jiaqi's mouth were more curved, but he seemed to have thought of something, and the smile on his lips became lighter:
majiaqi"Me too, let me tell you a secret, I'm actually sick."
Song Yu was stunned when she heard the words, then laughed and shook her hand:
songyu"How can anyone say that about themselves?"
majiaqi"I had a car accident a few years ago, and then one day I always forget some things I did before. For example, today, I wanted to go to the supermarket to buy something, but I forgot the way to get here."
Song Yu looked at Ma Jiaqi's serious appearance, and inexplicable emotions flashed in his eyes.
Ma Jiaqi's bland tone seemed to be telling a story. If he didn't say it, Song Yu wouldn't have thought that he was the protagonist of the story.
Song Yu moved her lips and wanted to say something comforting, but she knew that those words were actually pale and powerless.
Ma Jiaqi, who was in front of him, laughed loudly and couldn't help pinching Song Yu's face.
majiaqi"It's nothing, I'm actually used to it. But that's a good thing, otherwise I might not have met you."
Song Yu blushed instantly, stuttering and unable to say a complete sentence.
The small and delicate wind chimes swayed slightly again, as if playing a perfect closing song for the beginning of their story.
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Since then, Ma Jiaqi always came to Qiqi Bookstore in the afternoon and spent a dull and peaceful day talking and laughing with Song Yu.
Song Yu also tried her best to cure Ma Jiaqi's disease. She tried to go to some unfamiliar places with Ma Jiaqi, then left Ma Jiaqi in the same place, left there alone to go to the original starting point, and then asked Ma Jiaqi to come to her.
She knew that doing so was dangerous, but Ma Jiaqi's illness was getting worse and worse. She didn't want Ma Jiaqi to lose his memory. Facts proved that Song Yu's method was useful, and Ma Jiaqi's memory was significantly improved.
On this day, she still stood in the original place as usual, waiting for Ma Jiaqi to come to her. The dusk ended, but she still did not see the tall and familiar figure.
She wore around each store in a panic, whispering the words "Ma Jiaqi" softly, praying that Ma Jiaqi would be fine.
She finally found Ma Jiaqi in a restaurant, but there was also the scene she least wanted to see.
Ma Jiaqi's good-looking face had a smile, and he looked at a girl with delicate makeup across the dining table with crooked eyebrows.
She rushed over almost subconsciously, then pulled Ma Jiaqi's wrist, trying to get out of there.
Ma Jiaqi tugged at the corner of her clothes and motioned for her to wait.
The girl with delicate makeup had a playful smile on her face, squinting at Song Yu in front of her, Ma Jiaqi smiled at her again, then said thank you and pulled Song Yu away.
As soon as she left the restaurant, Song Yu pulled out her arm, her face full of dissatisfaction.
songyu"Do you know how worried I am about you?"
Ma Jiaqi scratched his head and nodded with some guilt.
majiaqi"When I wanted to find you, I forgot the way. I turned around a lot before I met Chen Jia. She helped me."
majiaqi"Yu Yu, I'm sorry for making you worry."
Chen Jia is the girl just now, Song Yu thought about it.
She said to Ma Jiaqi worriedly:
songyu"Otherwise, don't continue with this method, it's too dangerous."
Ma Jiaqi shook his head and looked at Song Yu seriously.
majiaqi"Continue, I don't want to forget you."
Ma Jiaqi said he didn't want to forget her.
Song Yu was stunned, covering his mouth and unable to say anything.
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During this time, Song Yu had been busy with her school affairs. She was preparing a paper. If the effect was good, she could directly get the opportunity to study abroad.
Ma Jiaqi knew she was busy, so he stayed at home obediently and waited for her good news.
He was a little confused, he didn't know if Song Yu going abroad was a good thing or a bad thing.
But as long as she's happy, it's a good thing.
Recently, he felt that his memory was getting worse and worse, but he didn't go to the hospital or tell Song Yu that he was afraid that she would be worried.
He closed his eyes, and in front of him was the girl's smiling face.
Song Yu stretched and rubbed her sore shoulders. The paper she had been busy with for a few days was finally completed. She submitted the paper and waited nervously at home.
She didn't go to Ma Jiaqi these days. She planned to tell him when the result came out, and then have a good day with him, and maybe say goodbye by the way.
But I don't know that God's arrangement is always ironic.
The results of the thesis came out, and Song Yu undoubtedly won the recommended quota.
She happily dialed Ma Jiaqi's phone, but there was a shrill female voice on the other end of the phone.
chenjia"Do you have no time to take care of Ma Jiaqi for your thesis?"
Song Yu was stunned, and inexplicably gave birth to a bad mood in his heart:
songyu"What happened to Ma Jiaqi?"
The other party opened his mouth coldly,
chenjia"Ma Jiaqi's disease is more serious than before. He fainted at his home this morning. But Song Yu, do you want to know? Before Ma Jiaqi realized it, he called me."
Song Yu closed her eyes and ignored Chen Jia's discord. She tried to hold back her emotions, and her calm voice trembled:
songyu"Tell me, where is he?"
A few chuckles came from the other end of the phone,
chenjia"I guess you probably got the chance to walk, but you have to think about it. If you don't give up the walk, it means that Ma Jiaqi will forget you, and giving up the walk means that your efforts during this time will be in vain."
chenjia"Think for yourself first."
Song Yu exhaled, and the calm she had forcibly established shattered and disintegrated at this moment. She shouted,
songyu"Let me ask you where Ma Jiaqi is!"
Chen Jia seemed to spit out a place name with some satisfaction and hung up the phone.
Song Yu tidied up with trembling hands, and then hurried to the hospital where Ma Jiaqi was.
Ma Jiaqi was sitting on the hospital bed with Song Yu's familiar smile on his pale face, and his good-looking eyes were staring at her.
Chen Jia sat by the bedside and let out a few hisses.
Ma Jiaqi said something softly to Chen Jia, and she left the ward with a face full of unwillingness.
Song Yu endured the emotional collapse and walked to Ma Jiaqi's bedside, holding Ma Jiaqi's hand with a reluctant smile on his face.
majiaqi"Yu Yu must have come to tell me the good news."
Song Yu nodded and pressed Ma Jiaqi's cold hand to her warm face.
Ma Jiaqi smiled, the fragility of his body made Song Yu full of love,
majiaqi"I knew it. My family, Yu Yu, is the best."
Then Ma Jiaqi seemed to have thought of something, with a little expectation and a little caution, and asked softly:
majiaqi"Then Yu Yu has decided?"
Song Yu trembled when she heard this, and kept saying "I'm sorry", fighting back her tears.
Ma Jiaqi raised his palm, gently wiped the tears from Song Yu's eyes with his fingertips, and shook his head to indicate that he didn't care, but Song Yu caught the disappointment that flashed through his eyes.
She finally couldn't help it, threw herself into Ma Jiaqi's arms and cried.
That day was the last time Song Yuhe met Ma Jiaqi, who remembered her.
Three years is neither long nor short, but enough for Ma Jiaqi to forget her.
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The sharp female voice interrupted Song Yu's memory. Song Yu turned her head and saw Chen Jia in front of her.
chenjia"Song Yu? Are you back?"
Song Yu nodded.
Chen Jia smiled, but shook his head with a little regret:
chenjia"But Ma Jiaqi doesn't remember you anymore."
She pushed away Song Yu, who was standing in front of the ward door, and walked in with an insulation box. Song Yu seemed a little unwilling, so she also came to Ma Jiaqi's bedside.
Ma Jiaqi's eyelashes trembled, and there was a moment of confusion in his open eyes, but he disappeared after seeing the person in front of him clearly.
With a clear smile as before, he looked at Chen Jia and said softly:
majiaqi"Chen Jia, thank you."
Chen Jia looked at Song Yu on the other side, raised her eyebrows, and had a smug smile on her face.
After a while, Ma Jiaqi seemed to notice that there was another person beside the hospital bed. It was a girl with slightly curly hair and fair skin. The other party laughed at him after seeing his sight, and his curved eyes squinted like a crescent moon.
He was stunned. The person in front of him was a little familiar, but he couldn't remember what special relationship he had with her, so he looked at Chen Jia,
majiaqi"Chen Jia, is this your friend?"
When the girl heard his words, her face suddenly turned extremely pale.
Song Yu didn't want to admit it, but he had to admit it.
Ma Jiaqi did forget her.
Chen Jia pretended to be a little puzzled and shook his head before saying to Song Yu:
chenjia"Miss, you went to the wrong ward."
Song Yu said "I'm sorry" in dismay, and then staggered out of the ward.
She walked up and down the street in confusion, and finally walked into a movie theater. The movie she chose was called "21g".
The film was nothing special to Song Yu, but she was stunned when she saw a sentence on the huge screen after the film ended.
That saying is, 21 grams is the weight of the soul.
She vaguely remembered that Ma Jiaqi once told her that his love for her had a net weight of 21 grams.
How did Song Yu answer at that time?
She said, why do you love me so little?
But I don't know that Ma Jiaqi is loving her with his life and loving her with his soul.
He knew that he would forget her one day, so he wanted to tell her in this way that he loved her very much and let her not worry.
She covered her mouth and cried silently in the dark cinema, tears fell to the ground through her fingers, her chest hurt faintly, and she did the thing she regretted the most in her life.
The tall and straight boy she remembered had really forgotten her.
He will no longer remember such a person, the person he once loved to the core.
Song Yu closed his eyes, and in his memory, he stood there, warm as jade.
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Some people who are dedicated to science have long-term research: everyone will lose 21 grams of weight when they die.
These 21 grams are the weight of the soul.
If someone has ever told you that his love for you weighs 21 grams net, don't forget that he is loving you with his life.
8.12.
jideguanzhushoucangdakaI'm sorry everyone, but I'm really busy these days and don't have time to code
jideguanzhushoucangdakaThis is an extra story about Ma Jiaqi written a long time ago
jideguanzhushoucangdakaSend it out for everyone to see
jideguanzhushoucangdakaIt will be updated on Sunday afternoon, and try to update it on Saturday, because there will be no holiday.
