Lin Siwan comforted Liu Yaowen, took him a glass of water, and waited for him to sit on the bed before leaning against the wall to speak slowly.
linsiwan"I don't know how to comfort you, so I plan to share my pain with you."
Liu Yaowen raised his head after hearing it.
linsiwan"This is also my secret."
Lin Siwan took a deep breath and spoke slowly.
linsiwan"I *ed up a show when I was about ten years old."
Lin Siwan tried to calm down her mood, but when she said the words, her voice still trembled a little.
linsiwan"That time, the teacher who played with me said that he was a world famous master. I prepared for that time for almost half a year, but I made a mistake."
linsiwan"There were a lot of people at that time, some people directly shouted for me to go down, I saw them... their eyes..."
Contempt and ridicule, unbelievable.
linsiwan"I... My mind was empty at the time. During that time, all around me were doubts and denials..."
linsiwan"During that time, I suffered from depression."
Lin Siwan suddenly couldn't say anything.
In fact, depression, when she was very young, had this tendency, but then maybe because of the piano she loved, relieved her tendency, but at that time it broke out completely.
linsiwan"Compared to this, I should actually be considered a monster."
linsiwan"At the height of my depression, I suffered from aphasia, and I was basically unable to communicate with people, including now... In fact, I was guided and treated by a psychological counselor for almost a year..."
It was a painful memory for her.
She is different from everyone else, she is out of tune with everyone else.
Lin Si turned her head up, so that the tears would not flow down.
liuyaowen"Sister Lou Wan..."
linsiwan"Including my current ability to communicate with people, maybe... it looks normal, everyone will have... but..."
linsiwan"These are all from later training."
That was another painful memory.
linsiwan"Compared to you, I'm actually more of a monster. I'm trying... trying to be a normal person."
So she is so caring and thoughtful when she takes care of people.
So she is always so kind.
Because of this, she can identify herself psychologically, not as a monster, but as a normal person, a normal person who does not need psychological guidance and various stimuli and treatments.
liuyaowen"Sister Lou Wan..."
This kind of Lin Siwan is very unfamiliar. She showed her fragile side and became a person who hugged Liu Yaowen for warmth.
Lin Siwan couldn't help it either. She tore all her secrets apart and gave them to another person she wasn't particularly familiar with. Doing this would actually make her feel very insecure. She was now at her own border, trying to make herself look normal.
linsiwan"Actually, you don't have to worry. Let's not talk about whether you are really sure that you like Xiaoyan very much. Even if it is true, it doesn't matter."
Lin Sipan spoke faster. In fact, she was already inexplicably nervous.
Lin Siwan closed his eyes and took a deep breath, letting his tense nerves relax again.
linsiwan"There's nothing I can't say. In fact, my cousin and his husband even went to the United States to get married. If you need it, I can push him to you on WeChat."
Lin Siwan was really nervous, and his speech was based on instinct but his brain.
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Because I feel that I am not normal, I try to be a good person and make others feel normal.
