Dear Journal,
It’s 3:30am, and I want to tell you about a dream that just ended.
I felt myself waking up to beautiful classical music. I didn’t want to wake up though. I had my eyes closed until the end of the song…and that’s when I heard "The Name".
“Thank you for that lovely performance of Apres un Reve played by the wonderful virtuoso Jake from ENHYPEN, and we’ll be back with more beautiful classical morning music here on RTÉ Lyric FM!”
After hearing the name “Sim Jae-yun”, I quickly got dressed and ran downstairs. I shouted out all kinds of gibberish and I stuttered.
“Sabrina, calm yourself, talk to us! What happened!?” Ashley said as she placed her hands and my shoulders.
“Sh-sh-sh…”
“Spit it out, Sabrina. It’s okay! You can tell me absolutely almost anything!”
“Sh-sh-sh-sh…JAKE!!”
Ashley’s jaw dropped.
“Jake Shim…from ENHYPEN?!”
“Yeah!” I squealed.
“Who’s this Jake-guy?” Ronan asked as he walked in through the door.
“He’s a……I’d say some sort of celebrity.” Ashley responded.
Ronan side-eyed Ashley.
“Alright! I'll tell you the truth! Jake is a violinist and a singer.”
“Where’s he from?”
“He’s Korean…well, he's Australian, too.”
“So he’s been to London?”
“I would have to say so!”
“Has she heard about him before?”
“Yup! He was her previous crush, you know, before she crushed on you?”
“Really? When did she first crush on him?”
“She’s had a crush on him since she was about…6 years old.”
“Wow! Does she still like him today?”
“You’ll have to ask her.”
I was busy playing on my phone. I didn’t really hear what they were saying.
The next scene changed everything! “Everything”, I tell you, “Everything”!
I ran downstairs and found myself squealing, jumping up and down!
“What’s the matter, Sabrina!?” Ashley said while jumping up and down with me.
“Something!!!”
“Something!?! Something good!?!”
“YEAH!!!”
We calmed ourselves down and we all sat down on the couch.
“Well, tell us! What’s the excitement!? What’s the news!?”
Coincidentally, my whole drama club (there are 8 of us so there’s Claire and her brother Lewis, John, Phil, Brenda, Evet, me, and Petel) came in.
“ENHYPEN is coming here to Galway! And Jake is going to be performing on the Tower wing of Galway Castle!”
Silence came and took over and then we all went ROAR!
“I wonder what day he’s arriving?” I said, "I better go check!"
In the next scene, I was walking down the streets of Galway when I saw a wonderful handsome, good-looking man in a tan colored jacket.
“It’s Winter already?” I asked myself, “It’s June, how could it be so cold already?”
I laughed. I coincidentally found him at the same photo agency I went to for my birthday photo shoot.
I walked in; I saw some of my friends along with the young man. My eyes almost welled up, I thought that I was seeing a Hollywood star! But I wasn’t.
I walked the way out.
The lady who stood with the photographer, saw me and stopped me as soon as I proceeded to the door.
“Miss, are you looking for a modeling agency?”
“I was checking the place out and I was just leaving.”
“Well, then I could give you some modeling shoots today. For free!”
“Truce!?”
“Yep, and I’m sure you’ve been here before, have you?”
“Yes, I came here on my 12th birthday, you probably know me.”
The lady was so excited for me. I couldn’t wait to get started!
But…I had no clothing to wear for the shoot (I wore my school uniform. It was the one from my school. I had on a white shirt, a blue plaid skirt [the shirt was tucked in], a black neck tie, white knee high socks, black penny loafers, and to top it all off, a navy blue blazer along with my favorite white rhinestone headband).
So I sat at a chair, and started playing with my phone (my legs were crossed and on top of the table).
The lady and the photographer were absolutely AMAZED about my pose, and took the photo. I was so…shocked by the time I got home and checked my instagram.
“I LOVE THIS PLACE! WHOO!”
I shouted as I ran down the stairs. My sister…and Ronan’s head popped out of Ashley’s room.
“I see you’re a bit giddy there, Sabrina!” Ashley shouted back.
“Yeah, you might want to tell us why you’re being giddy?”
I couldn’t hear what they said.
I shouted, “IF YOU MUST KNOW WHY THE HECK I’M SO FLIPPING GIDDY IS BECAUSE I SAW MY PICTURE THE PHOTOGRAPHER ALREADY TOOK! IT’S FROM THE MODELING AGENCY!!!”
Ashley and Ronan looked at each other in perplexity.
Until Ashley said, “Oh, she might be talking about the same photography studio we went to on her birthday for her photo shoot.”
“Oh…okay.”
In the next scene, I was walking in the same streets of Galway again, when I saw the same man walking the same way; I followed him…again. This time, though, he caught me as soon as I stepped inside.
“And what is your name, madam?”
“I’m…Sabrina!”
“Oh, Jake!” said a lady (who was the same one from the first time I went), “This is your new partner!”
Partner?
I was confused. Perplexed actually. If I would have known that I was going to be the guy’s partner, then I would have gotten started! In which I did!
So we were both brought into a gray room with big cameras and lights, and we sat down.
He is so sweet! I thought, I mean, imagine if I was his age and we’d get married! I mean, he does seem like the perfect guy I might want to marry!
After the photographer gave us the pictures we took, I floated all the way home (it really means I skipped). What I didn’t know is, the pictures were going on Instagram!
My mom and my sister said as they stormed into my room, “SABRINA, IS THIS YOU AND JAKE!?”
“No, Why?”
“Because, it says here, ‘Could this be ENHYPEN’s Jake’s next girlfriend?’ You do love this guy and you’ve been fascinated by him since you were 6!”
I was so shocked! Why did they say such a thing? Why didn’t I know Jake’s name before? The answer was that I forgot who Jake was and what he looked like because I hung out with Ronan.
I did love him when I was younger, that was true. Just not at six. I was younger than that. I was four years old when I had a crush on Jae-yun.
I admit, he did look pretty cute. In fact, he’s really HOT! But he is a little more experienced than Ronan.
I’d never been that shy about my shoots with him, and he was very kind to me from the start. But when I went to the modeling studios again, Jake wasn’t there!
“He has to practice for the gala on the 29th, which is in 2 days.” said the lady who gave us our photos.
I didn’t feel as happy as I thought I’d be. I did tear up, but I felt better when she said some of the schools in Galway were going to support him!
However, in the next scene, I found myself shouting, “What!? What do you mean I can’t join!? The positions are filled out already!? What’s going on!? I don’t understand!”
Until I came to realize, “Oh, now I remember, I forgot I’m more of a…writer than a helper!” and my sister, and my whole club nodded their heads, “And I forgot Ronan and his club won 1st place, and we won 3rd place.” they nodded again, “And I also forgot that you all joined Ronan’s club except me!”
“Yup, you’re correct!” Ashley said.
“Speaking of clubs, we’re going to see his rehearsal, and if you like, we can film it so that you’ll feel like you’ve been there!” Claire said.
They all walked out;
I pouted as I said, “Dang it!” before stomping to my room.
That was not fair of my sister and my best friends! How were they excluding me from seeing my favorite classical violinist/idol rehearse!?
I laid on my bed in anger. When they got home, oh, boy was I ready to scream my butt off! They looked at me in worry.
“Is Sabrina okay?” Lewis asked Ashley, “She’s looking at us like we’ve done something wrong!”
I, not going to lie, shouted, “I AM NOT MAKING A SCENE!”
Before I could even say more, there was a knock at the door.
“Sabrina, you’re going to have to wait upstairs, we have a very important guest and we don’t need any more of your distractions!”
“Okay! Geez!”
I was in my room, I was laying down. I heard the door open and I quietly peered down to see who it was.
I already knew who it was: Jake.
“Jake!” Ashley said as she welcomed him in, “What a pleasant surprise! Come on in!”
My mouth made an O (meaning my jaw dropped), and I was frozen.
“That’s the same guy I took the photos with at the photo studio!” I said to myself, “But how did he know our address?”
I hopped onto my bed and took a bit of a nap…until Ashley ran up to my room with Ronan. I was in awe, it was so cool that Jake was in our house…so cool!
I was about to burst into tears, until I heard footsteps coming upstairs. I ran back to my room and accidentally slammed the door too loud.
SLAM!
As Ronan and Ashley entered my room, I said, “You do know that I’m mad at you, right?”
“Yup!”
“Agreed!”
I was just too angry to be happy.
“Uh, Jake told me to tell you he said ‘Hi’. Does that make you a little happier?” Ronan said.
“Yes, but when can I see him, though?”
“On the 29th, for the gala!” Ashley said.
My eyes welled with tears…and then I started crying.
“NO!” I cried on my pillow, “I’ll get impatient that way! No! NOOO!”
I cried and I cried and I cried. My mom came and calmed me down, saying, “He likes you too, but you might not want to bother him as much right now, because of his rehearsals, so just try to take your mind off of him until the gala, okay?”
“Oh, alright!”
“Thank you!” Ashley said.
As they left the room, I plopped back onto my pillow. But I then devised a plan.
I’ll go to Galway Castle, see a bit of his rehearsal, and then come back home! Simple as that!
And the next day, the plan was in progress. I had to pretend I wasn’t there, when I really was there! The plan was literally working!
I was pretty much…well, in fact, I didn’t know what my exact feeling was, but it was a happy type of feeling.
The piece he was practicing was Violin Sonata No.1 in G minor by Bach. And I was in awe. I tried not to get noticed as I secretly ran upstairs to watch the rest of the rehearsal.
But I was pretty startled as I thought I saw Ashley taking notice. I naturally walked away to where I could still hear the rehearsal and where they couldn’t see me.
“That was close!” I said.
I was half asleep when I was woken by Jake’s voice.
“Thank you, this rehearsal meant so much to me! And thank you all for supporting me during this rehearsal. And we’ll have a very formal dinner tonight to celebrate! Thank you!”
Everyone came to applause; I applauded them.
And then I shouted, “BRAVO!”
It was after the applause, and Jake thought it was one of the audience members.
And then I quietly said, “Oops!”
After everyone left, I forgot my book, so I went to go fetch it. But as I was rushing down to get to the stairs, I actually FELL down the stairs, and landed flat on my face. Jae-yun stood in silence.
“Are you okay?” he finally asked, “Yup, just fine! Gee, you sound an awful lot like J–”
When I fully lifted my head, my eyes met Jake’s.
I finally said, “…Oh my god, I’m so sorry, I didn’t mean to say that, I was meant to say ‘I like you’, but the word 'love' just came out of my mouth for no darn reason at all, and for some strange reason, I–”
“It’s okay!” Jake said, as he kissed me.
I was so euphoric! I ran straight home and squealed in my pillow! That night, I told Mom that I was going to have dinner with some of my friends, and that I might need to pay for the tip. She gave me some money that was enough for the restaurant.
The restaurant they were going to was Petronella Restaurant & Cafe. I got dressed in a black high low long sleeved dress (w/some make-up by Phoebe).
And so I was off for my dinner. I was sitting at a table beside Jake, so that was a coincidence, BIG TIME.
But I did get a little jealous that I didn’t join in with everyone. Completely, I started to feel a bit sad. The only feeling that I felt for the rest of the day.
Can this day get any better and worse? I thought.
It was while I was at the edge of crying that I heard Jake’s voice. “Sabrina?” he said.
That startled me.
“Jake, what a surprise! How are you?”
“I’m good, and you?”
“I’m doing just fine!”
Ashley was busy explaining whatever was on her phone, and everyone got curious and started looking at her phone.
“Aren’t you listening?”
“I was, but then I saw you, and…I like that you’re kind to people like your sister.”
I blushed for a moment.
“Thank you!”
And then, our heads crept closer…closer…closer…and then we kissed (not on the lips, but on each others’ cheek)
“You get it all Ja–” Ashley stopped for a moment, and then said, “Jake! What the heck are you doing?”
“Oh, nothing!” Jake said as he broke free from me.
Ashley was suspicious.
“We’d never have a lip-lock on each other, I mean I’m a little young for him! Am I?”
“Yes, you are…a young adult!”
“Aw!”
“Ew!”
Later on, the next day, I was taking my daily walk in the city, when I met Jake again while crossing the street. And then while I was sitting on the bench I saw him sitting across the other side of the street…and I saw him again when I was walking one way.
He walked the other way…and then for the last time in forever, he saw me talking to Gottfried van Dijk. I laughed because he was so darn funny!
And it was the night of the gala.
I had a dress picked out by my mom, who said, “I’m so proud of you, for keeping your emotions under control!”
I didn’t know what she was talking about at first but I had to let her have it.
Galway Castle was AWESOME. It was all lit up, and how the streamers and decorations were put up. It was really fancy.
The concert started at 8:30 pm until 9:17pm, because of Jake’s speech.
But, I told (in disguise) that I wanted to perform next. And so, we all got ready (me, Phoebe, and Periwinkle did). And after, we got quite an ovation!
Even Jake was amazed! My mom, not so much. As the dream came to its conclusion, Me and Jake started talking!
“Do you have to go, so soon?”
“Unfortunately, I do!”
“When will I see you again?”
“In about…4 years!”
“4 years!?”
“Yup!”
I stood quiet for a moment.
Then I said, “Well, unless you message me when you can, then I hope you have a safe trip!”
“I will!”
Suddenly, something pushed me, and I ended up kissing Jake again! Jake gave me a smile and walked away.
I smiled so much that I fainted, and then I woke up saying, “Ouch!”
“Are you okay, Sabrina?” asked my mom.
I laid my head back down after staying quiet for a moment and said, “Yeah! In fact, I got the best sleep in forever.”
As soon as Mom left my room, I shouted, “No, I didn’t! That was the worst, most horrible nightmare I’ve ever had! Except for the parts that had Jake from ENHYPEN. Now that was beautiful!”
And now, this brings the end of this entry. Bye!
All the best, Sabrina ❤️.