My phone alarm went off. But I did not wake up to answer it. Eventually, I did wake up and I did turn it off. But as I stretched out my whole body…I then felt a scratch in my throat. I tried to swallow it off. But then I thought:
Y/N"Once I eat, then my throat would feel less sore!"
But it didn’t feel any better. I also noticed that my energy was a bit more slower than usual. I took my temperature: 99.58˚C. I knew I had a cold. I didn’t know what type, but it was a cold. And that was when Holly Fitzpatrick Short called me.
Holly Fitzpatrick ShortY/N. Where are you? You’re supposed to be here at 5am.
Y/NI don’t feel very well, my throat is sore and I can’t move fast.
Holly Fitzpatrick ShortWell, if you really are sick, then call Mr. Hwa-min. I’m sure he’ll understand.
Y/NNo, no, no. And deal with the crazy Tae-woo? I can’t do that. I’m just going to force it all, even if I do have a cold.
I didn’t want to lie in bed that day. I was supposed to go to the agency at 5am. But the evaluation was only two months away. In those days, I never skipped anything, especially school and training.
But I was sick, a time when you would have to stay at home and rest, I didn’t know how I was going to face the harmful and traumatic consequences once I had recovered.
All I’m trying to say is that, no matter what, I should still practice and work hard for everything.
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As a miracle, I managed to get through the day without coughing and sneezing. Either I had the 7 hour flu, or maybe that was what happens when you wake up on a certain morning day.
But it was quite weird as well, since it was cold all week at the time. In forever, I actually felt good about myself. But then, it was on a Friday, usually the last day before our weekend break, when I was searching through my lunch cubby.
I realized someone literally took my lunch and dumped it out.
And it was true!
And all of us knew who took it.
Y/N"Tae-woo! How could you?!"
But then I remembered. I had to weigh 50 kgs or less. This opportunity was at the cost. Kanade noticed and shared half her salad with me.
And that’s how it’s been for the next couple days. I took some salad (Caesar Salad), and ate nothing for the rest of the evening. But at night, I did eat a bowl of fruit.
The next morning I only ate a boiled egg. I believe I must have consumed at least 3 or 400 calories each day. It was quite hectic.
I remembered, after two days dieting, feeling so fatigued and the anemia that was in my blood cells that I lacked a lot of strength for my dance classes and group practices.
In Ireland, we didn’t have any room for salads. Me and my family would pouch a lot of carbs in our bodies. My diet was both terrible, but really delicious at the same time.
But we are speaking about the diets that K-Pop idols go through!
At that moment, I really thought of dying of hunger. But that was how determined I was…to live.
Me and the girls were getting our weight checked. The staff member that was checking us listed the girls’ name and our weight number.
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1. Kanade Nishimura - 49.3KG
2. Shion Pam - 47.6KG
3. Choi Hye-mi - 50KG
4. Momo Xing - 49KG
5. Holly Fitzpatrick Short - 48.4KG
6. Juliet Butler - 50KG
7. Lara Matthews - 50.4KG
8. Maeve Sullivan - 49KG
9. Erika Hernandez - 50KG
10. Leila Hernandez - 48KG
11. Rebbeca Hernandez (Nickname: Keira) - 50KG
12. Isabelle Hernandez - (Nickname: Isabelle Lee) - 47.9KG
13. Hinata Haruki (Nickname: Yui) - 46.9KG
14. Livia Morticio - 49.3KG
15. Jax Merriam - 48.9KG
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I was up next. I took off both my shoes and socks. I stepped onto the weight scale and it read: 46.2. I was pretty surprised. All of that weight I had lost in just a matter of a week’s time!
I said, relieved.
Y/NI couldn’t even drink any water! And I’m serious!
That day, we all rejoiced. But for me…that was concerning. Sure we needed to lose a couple unnecessary pounds. But I didn’t expect it to be so much!
And that was when I realized this positive trainee life has turned into a toxic and venomous remedy.
