CHAPTER THIRTY
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BTS were the first to head down the red carpet. And so were TXT. And then ENHYPEN. Where were we, you are thinking. Well…we had a lot to get done first. We had to make sure that everything was ready before we would head down to the stadium.
Everything that we were going to do reminded me the days in I-LAND. I thought of it as a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. And becoming an idol is one of them. Only… I’ve learned that sometimes…there will always be more than just one chance.
We then came last to the red carpet. The entire space fell silent for our arrival. Only the sounds of our heels clicking the floor could be heard.
Many paparazzis were clamoring over us, asking for their pictures and newspeople were towering and saying “This just in…”, etc, etc.
But the most surprised were ENHYPEN. They never expected us to actually be there after everything that happened during the last event. However, this time…they didn’t do anything to stop us. Our little plan was going on accordingly.
ENHYPEN was performing their new single Drunk-Dazed and their popular number Mixed Up. it was nearly our turn to show the audience what we got. But it was going to be quite a showcase, since we were the ones that were going to conclude the entire thing.
And then…it was eventually our turn. And no one was able to stop. For a miraculous reason…Jay might have resolved what had been going on the past three years. I think he might be feeling better.
The crowds went wild when they saw us enter the stage in our first outfits. It was as if…all of us were just born to be in the spotlight.
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Hey, hey, hey
You’re okay
Hey, hey, hey
Brave Sound (check it!)
The way you look at me
It’s not the same as before
I’ve still got the looks
But why do you look at me like I’m a worn-out shoe?! (Tell me why!)
I’m so pretty, no matter what I wear
I’m so sexy, even if I don’t show skin
I’m wearing sexy high heels and sexy stockings
You won’t be able to take your eyes off of me, so don’t you dare stop me!
When I wear a miniskirt…
And walk on the street, all eyes are on mе
I am wearing a miniskirt…!
But why are you thе only one who doesn’t notice?
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
I'm a confident girl!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
And yet you like it when you’re making me struggle!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Everything else you can’t do, and yet you only ignore me!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
I guess I have no choice but to end this and avenge myself from you!
I make time to fix a broken nail and updo my beautiful, long hair
I wear new shoes and a miniskirt but you don’t look
Why don’t you say I’m look pretty in anything?!
There’s nothing wrong with indifference!
Before then, other wolves may come and snatch me away!
Pay attention, stupid boy!
(pre-chorus and chorus)
I'm getting more and more tired right now,
I notice that your beauteous eyes are looking at me, straight into mine!
Why are they so cold? I just don't know!
But I don't you know that they'll have to change right this instant?!
Yeah, yeah!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
I'm a confident girl!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
And yet you like it when you’re making me struggle!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Everything else you can’t do, and yet you only ignore me!
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
Ooh, Ooh, Ooh
I guess I have no choice but to end this and avenge myself from you!
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For some reason, he’s so handsome!
The words that he once said were so sweet!
But the look that had stared at me,
Was not so ordinary.
Of course, so naturally,
Put your arms all over my shoulders!
It was your skill at raising
And you were so exceptional at it!
As I had expected,
I must ask, why are your premonitions always right?
As for the ominous feeling I feel, you were such a womanizer!
What you said to me was,
Not only me but others too!
And this one goes for all women too!
I don’t want a playboy
I don't even know what love is anymore!
How did you end up with a beautiful woman you don’t know?!
I don’t want a playboy
I despise these kind players! And explain to me why am I crazy?!
Be cautious and pay attention, as I say to you! No playboys!
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Hey there, you pretty boy (Pretty boy)
You’ve caught my eye right now! (Let’s get it started)
The ideal back view (Yeah-huh, yeah-huh)
I keep being drawn to you because I want you (Hey, every time I see you)
Your eyes twinkle twinkle
My heart is dancing round and round
I send you a sign
Pink colored color
Telepathy wing - wing!
My heart grows bigger yesterday and today too
It’s frustrating, it’s a night where I’m the only one bursting out inside
Why are you the only one who doesn’t know?
Turn up the signal
I can’t get my mind off you
This is like gravity
Now you too are attracted
Caught and cut off
Can you hear me, my lover sign
Increase your sensitivity makeup (makeup)
Caught and cut off
Don’t miss it, over time
hurry send you to me
You’re my boy
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Wi-Fi
Londoners!
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Wi-Fi
Tell me, darling
Tell me, darling
What the hell is that?!
I keep getting curious about you!
Even if I try to narrow the distance,
I just show more of me!
Why do you, why don’t you know?!
I was fascinated by your charm!!
(Hold up, hold up!)
Don’t hide, just show up right in front of me!
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La
I have a high arrogance,
I can’t manage my facial expressions!
La La La La La La
La La La La La La La
Do you still not understand?!
Turn up the signal!
I can’t get my mind off you!
This is like gravity, baby
Now you’re being attracted too!
Caught and cut off
Can you hear me, my lover sign
Increase your sensitivity makeup (makeup)
Caught and cut off
Don’t miss it, over time
hurry send you to me
You’re my boy
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Wi-Fi
Londoners!
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Wi-Fi
Tell me, darling
Tell me, darling
It’s late, hurry, hurry, hurry!
Enter your Wi-Fi password and call me!
(Password mismatch)
Oh, think about it carefully!
20, 18, 07, 18
Yes! Ok! Whoo!
Urrr peek-a-boo yeah!
Come a little closer to me!
One, two, tres, quatro
(Yeah) I got caught and I got hung up
Can you hear me, my lover sign
Increase your sensitivity makeup (makeup; Increase your sensitivity)
Caught and cut off
Don’t miss it, over time (don’t miss it, baby)
hurry send you to me
You’re my boy
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Wi-Fi
Londoners!
Let me show you my special world
Try tuning the frequency a little more... to my sign…!
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What are you that I keep thinking about?!
I feel sad because my pride is hurt
My face is hot and my heart keeps pounding,
My body doesn’t work the way I want it to and I’m dizzy!
You are like a handful of sand!
It seems like I can’t get caught...
It’s not easy for you, that’s why I’m attracted to you even more!
It’s ridiculous that my heart doesn’t go the way it wants!
I want you now!
Can you feel my breath?
Even though I’m looking at you, I’m missing you!
So tonight, won't you set me free?
Darling, hold me like I’m about to explode
Stop thinking about it, what’s so difficult about it?
Kiss me like it’s another lie, I’m telling you
It’s as if you were my very last love!
As if it’s your last;
Just love me as if it’s your last love!
As if it’s your last;
Let’s live it as if it’s our last love!
I shall fall in love, darling
You can come catch me, uh
Give you all of this, darling
Call me pretty and nasty
‘Cause we’re going to get it, my love
You can bet it on black
We’re going to double the stack on them, hey!
I’ll be the Bonnie and you’ll be my Clyde
We’ll ride or die, Xs and Os
As the days go passing by
My lonely heart just becomes anxious.
You are the only one in my world. I’m missing you!
So tonight, won’t you set me free?
Darling, hold me like I’m about to explode
Stop thinking about it, what’s so difficult about it?
Kiss me like it’s another lie, I’m telling you
It’s as if you were my very last love!
As if it’s your last;
Just love me as if it’s your last love!
As if it’s your last;
Let’s live it as if it’s our last love!
It’s a brand new beginning.
Because I will never look back
If I throw you at me, you will catch me!
Because the world won’t be able to break us!
(We are in your area–
We are in your area!)
Darling, hold me like I’m about to explode
Stop thinking about it, what’s so difficult about it?
Kiss me like it’s another lie, I’m telling you
It’s as if you were my very last love!
As if it’s your last;
Just love me as if it’s your last love!
As if it’s your last;
Let’s live it as if it’s our last love!
As if it were the last time…
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You, who I am seemingly seeing in front of this looking glass, are not me!
I have a headache, it’s making me dizzy, and I can feel something on my head!
I want to just run away, disappear from this world.
Someone save me, tell who I am for I don’t know who I am!
I guess it’s just me that is losing my mind.
But I feel a sprout of horns on the top of my head,
And I don’t think there is a way for any of them to stop!
I am all alone in the living world!
Someone help me! I have become a horrendous monster!
Have no one but you
Who are you?
Are you the salvation that found me the moment I was abandoned?
Who are you?
Are your wings in the same pain as I feel?
A crown rises on my head, but I love it
It has become a gold crown and nothing else!
It gives me this riveting feeling!
I may have a heart of chaos, but I love it!
It’s finally perfect,
For the two of us know that we are the two of us!
Stop the loneliness, abracadabra!
Stop the suffering, abracadabra!
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After all of that was our last song of the event. We had to make this work. We had to show everyone that even us newcoming idols/cover artists have dreams and we would do anything to make them come true.
The lights went dark…it was time for our performance. We were ready for our finale.
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I got pushed and drifted away,
Only to find myself in front of a door of the dream that only I had been searching for a long time.
But then, I hear this beautiful melody in the back of my mind,
It was something that made me wander into this world.
When I was alone, there was no one there to comfort me,
But when I am with you, my pain goes away.
I realized it was me enduring what was really going on, without having me to show it.
And when I met you for the first time,
Meeting you made me understand this reason.
I’m scared, most definitely, but…
I run with a strong heart, so let’s just try.
It’s our chance to find the footprints engraved,
To stick each and every of our backstories together.
Will you be my friend and walk with me on this destined path?
Let’s just run for our lives!
Let’s reach out both of our hands and make a permanente promise!
Let’s just run for our lives!
Suddenly, I am seeing the entrance to the future,
And along there, a fulfilled promised day
You and I…we shall fly
You and I will fight, two hearts melt in one
Let’s just run for our lives
We’ll go into the I-LAND
Run for your heart, run for your life
Our home is in the I-LAND
Run for your heart, run for your life
When I’m alone, no one’s there for me
When I’m with you, nothing’s painful
To me, the Earth seemed like a deserted island!
But right now, you’re sitting right next to me!
Right here beside me, we are running for our dreams together
Yeah I’m scared, and my entire body is terribly trembling,
Let’s promise to try and never stop and go, let’s just try
It’s our chance to embrace who we are,
To know we’re not alone again
Will you be my friend and walk with me on this destined path?
Let’s just run for our lives!
Let’s reach out both of our hands and make a permanente promise!
Let’s just run for our lives!
Suddenly, I am seeing the entrance to the future,
And along there, a fulfilled promised day
You and I…we shall fly
You and I will fight, two hearts melt in one
Let’s just run for our lives
Into these islands of “I”
They connect small lines to the dots in order to build and form a pathway of our journey
Now I and I and I and I are I-LAND
You and I, you and I, you and I, you and I are one
Of your and my dreams, the I-LAND
Run for your heart, run for your life, hey
Of your and my dreams, the I-LAND
Run for your heart, run for your life
Shall you be my friend, walk this path with me
Let’s just run for our lives (run for our lives)
Let’s reach out both of our hands and make a permanente promise!
(Reach out and promise to me)
Let’s just run for our lives
Suddenly there is an entrance
Promising us for a tomorrow
You and I…we shall fly
You and I will fight, two hearts melt in one
Let’s just run for our lives
(Let’s just run for our lives)
Run for your dreams!
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The entire stage and audience were silent. As if they had never seen us before. Our moves may have been so simple and old-fashioned…but after a matter of fifteen seconds, the people erupted with cheering and screaming, as if we just saved the world…or saved an entire red carpet event!
I looked over to the ENHYPEN boys…they were all so teary-eyed. Clearly they hadn’t heard the I-LAND theme in about a year. After all…it was 2021.
After, the girls and I switched back to our runway outfits and I saw Jake standing right in front of me. I then said into the microphone:
“Jake…I’m so sorry that I had us break up. It was wrong of me and…I obviously should have listened to you before making assumptions. Luckily…I didn’t think it was you before when incidents like that first happened.”
Before Jake could respond, Jay stepped forward.
“No, I’m sorry,” he said, “To be honest…whatever happened at JYP is in the past now. But unfortunately, the fact that TWICE humiliated me and Stray Kids did nothing about it. It was as if the CEO wanted them to bully me and get me kicked out. And…he succeeded. But then, PD-nim from BigHit scouted me and I had been training him for another year before I-LAND was renewed for another season in 2020. But when I wasn’t given any good during that time…it was as if…the memories at JYP were still there and came back to haunt me. You weren’t told this…but I couldn’t sleep because of it.”
“Jake told me everything, Jay,” I said, “I didn’t think you weren’t doing this just for trouble, or because we were girls and had a lot of popularity. I definately figured something was going through your mind and you didn’t know what else to do.”
“Does this mean you–”
“Of course…” I said, nodding my head, “Just as long as you don’t do it again. Promise us that?”
“He already made that promise WAY before.”
The audience laughed at Jake’s joke. And honestly, I did too. He was the clown of ENHYPEN too.
Finally, the big segment of the event came. It was time to announce the winner of Artist of the Year.
“The moment we’ve all been waiting for…” said the Master of Ceremonies, “The award for Artist of the Year goes to…”
The anticipation was already trembling through my entire body.
Fingers cross that we get the award and get this over with…I’m tired of waiting.
“GALWAY LONDONERS…AND AO3!!!” said the Master of Ceremonies.
We couldn’t believe it…we actually won. We actually won the Melon Music Awards! All of us (except me) broke down in tears. But I ran to Jake’s arms and kissed him on the lips. And they all caught it on camera. The fans saw us on the big screen, the very one if an audience member was sitting so far away.
We pulled away. But his arms were still holding my waist glued tight on him. I never felt so happy in all of my life.
“We did it!” I said, “We really did it!”
“I know you did,” said Jake, “And I am so proud of you. I love you so much.”
The last year may have been rough, but it quickly went back up again. I may experiance the same thing for many years to come. But, hey…at least I found a way to get there, right?