♡When Love Impregnates Us♡ / ¤CHAPTER 17: Happiness?¤
♡When Love Impregnates Us♡
  • “I DON'T KNOW WHY I'M STILL HOPING.”- unknown
  • “Mrs. Park, are you happy in this marriage?”
  • “Um… I… I'm not”
  • “So why can't you just divorce Mr. Park? Is being a divorcee bad?”
  • “No, I wouldn't mind getting a divorce if I wasn't in a happy relationship. But my kids, they mean so much to me, I don’t want to see them going through what I did when I was younger. Especially Jamie. And Aera loves her father.”
  • “Mrs. Park, I understand where you are coming from. Trust me, I do. But sometimes you have to think about yourself.”
  • “I know, but when you have kids, you don't matter as you do anymore, not that you don’t matter at all. But you have responsibilities that need to be taken care of.”
  • “Can I ask a personal question?”
  • “Um… yeah.”
  • “How long have you had any sexual intercourse?”
  • “Um… I don't know. With everything that's happening, I don't have time for that.”
  • “Mrs. Park, you're hurting and I can see. I can see that you cry yourself to sleep. This marriage is bringing you down. I understand you don’t want your kids to go through what you went through. But your mental health. It concerns me.”
  • “So, what do you suggest I do?”
  • “I suggest you take time to yourself and think about what you want. And then come back and tell me and we both can find a solution.”
  • “What I want is… a family. I want to be the one my husband sees. He should take care of me and our children. I want him to see the love we have for him. But that's impossible.”
  • “And why is that?”
  • “Because the Park Jimin I know will never love me. The only thing he will ever do to me and I allow it is use me, and I allow him to. I thought maybe he will love me more. But I was just lying to myself. That man only loves one person, and it's Areum. I don't hate him for not liking me. I want to hate him because of how he treats me and the kids. But I can't because no matter how someone hurts me, I can never hate them. And I hate myself for that. It sucks… if it weren’t for the kids. I and Jimin would have been apart. Because he doesn't love me and would never love me. I love him with all my heart and will die for him any day, but he doesn't care.”
  • “Mrs. Park, calm down. This man does not deserve your tears.”
  • “He doesn't, but yet I am always crying because of him. I cry like a baby. I'm hurting. But I don't mind putting up with it as long as my kids are happy with their father.”
  • “Mrs. Park…”
  • “I know, but I love my kids and would do anything for their happiness. If being with their father makes them happy. Then… I wouldn't mind being in a relationship with him, no matter how much he hurts me.”
  • “This * hurts.”
  • “It does, but I’m used to it. And me being aware hurts more.”
  • “Still.”
  • “I know, but that's how life is. It's not rainbows and fairy tales. Reality is something I fear.”
  • “You're a strong woman, but still…”
  • “Mrs. Kim, whether it's bravery or stupidity, I want the best for my kids.”
  • “I'm always here for you if you need anything.”
  • “Thank you.”
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¤CHAPTER 17: Happiness?¤